Micheal Felker exists…
To WORSHIP GOD in my life and through my family.
To INSPIRE PEOPLE to deepen their relationship with Jesus Christ>
To EQUIP OTHERS to serve, lead, and love their people and communities.

Kicking at the Darkness is about my experiences as a  pastor in transition and focuses on what I’m learning in relation to leadership as a young pastor, husband,  father, disciple, and writer. I write for other young leaders to help encourage and equip them to live lives of significance and impact.

Who is Micheal Felker and why should you read his website?

Micheal Felker is a 30something year old husband, dad, pastor, writer, music enthusiast, and disciple of Jesus Christ. Micheal works as the lead pastor for a church in the DFW area and serves families in this role.

Why I Blog:

In 2011, I transitioned from the role of Youth and Family Pastor to Lead Pastor in the church I have served in since 2006. I have a passion for helping people develop a dynamic, growing relationship with Jesus Christ and I also have a desire to help pastors make transitions and lead in greater capacity.In an effort to clarify the vision for my life, I believe that I am called to the following three things:

To WORSHIP GOD in my life and through my family.
To INSPIRE PEOPLE to deepen their relationship with Jesus Christ>
To EQUIP OTHERS to serve, lead, and love their people and communities.

This site is a collection of my thoughts, writings, notes, and tips that will help you make a dent in your world for Jesus Christ.

If you have questions about faith, join us here on the journey. If you find yourself wondering how faith and following Jesus impacts your life day in and day out, join the conversation. If you are a fan of music, this is your site. If you, too, are trying to find your place in the world, then read on.


What does “Kicking at the Darkness” mean?
The phrase “Kicking at the Darkness” comes from one of my favorite U2 songs “God Pt 2.”

I don’t believe in the ’60s
In the golden age of pop
You glorify the past
When the future dries up
I heard a singer on the radio
Late last night
Says he’s gonna kick the darkness
Till it bleeds daylight

I believe in love

(Of course, the singer Bono is refering to is Bruce Cockburn, a telented singer/songwriter in his own right.)

Steve Stockman, author of “Walk On: The Spiritual Journey of U2.”, writes, “It is a behavioral manifesto. This is a clear code of biblical living. It is close to being a sermon against the world’s vices that the Kingdom of God opposes. In the end, there is more frightening talk against the devil and his rule against the world: “I heard a singer on the radio late last night/ Says he’s gonna kick at the darkness/ Til it bleeds daylight.” What a wonderful motto for the kingdom builder.”

That is the motto for this site. Week after week, I will strive to kick at all kinds of darkness. First, at the darkness in my own life. Confusion, pain, sin. Secondly, I will kick at the darkness around me. This is the main thrust. I’m tired of just waiting around. As MLK said, “Time doesn’t ever take care of things like that. Time doesn’t take care of racisim. Bold moves by convicted people bring about change, not time.” I’m ready for some change.

What do you mean by “meeting God without sunglasses?”
A few months ago I read Bono in Conversation, a great book with wonderful insight into Bono, the lead singer of U2. The line comes from the following section:

Assayas: So you discovered things that, on first glance, you’d rather have kept hidden? What were those?

Bono: The gauche nature of awe, of worship, the wonderment at the world around you. Coolness might help in your negotiation with your world, maybe, but it is impossible to meet God with sunglasses on. It is impossible to meet God without abandon, without exposing yourself, being raw. That’s the connection with great music and art, and that’s the other reason you wanted to join a band: you wanted to do the cool thing. Trying to capture religious experiences on tape wasn’t what you had in mind when you signed up for the job.

Assayas: What about your own sunglasses, then? Do you wear them the same way a taxi driver would turn off his front light, so as to signal to God that this rock star is too full of himself and not to hire at the moment?

Bono: Yeah, my insincerity… I have learnt the importance of not being earnest at all times. You don’t know what’s going on behind those glasses, but God, I can assure you, does. (53-54)

This conversation was quite possibly the best section of the entire book. I long to meet God with no pretenses with no ego. My sunglasses are broken.

The Goal Is Soul