Doubt

Doubt hit me pretty hard yesterday.

I’ve never had a panic attack but my guess is that one started to kick up in my heart as I started thing about what I want to accomplish over the course of my life and ministry.

That’s too big for you.
That’s way too hard.
Do you realize how impossible that is?
You don’t even know what you are doing.
You can’t possibly begin to think that you of all people could ever…

My chest tightened and my confidence eroded. That voice was and is right about everything.

My dreams are big.
Leading and serving is hard.
I don’t always know what I’m doing.

I have no faith in myself. My faith is somewhere else.

My faith is in the One who is the Biggest and Greatest.
My faith is in the One for whom nothing is too difficult.
My faith is in the One who does the impossible.
My faith is in the One who was and is and is to come.

Ultimately my faith is not in the abilities that I have or the circumstances that surround me. Mt faith is in Jesus.

Colossians 1:15–20 NIV11
“The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. And he is the head of the body, the church; he is the beginning and the firstborn from among the dead, so that in everything he might have the supremacy. For God was pleased to have all his fullness dwell in him, and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.”

My dreams are big.
Leading and serving is hard.
I don’t always know what I’m doing.

But I have confidence that One who who began a good work in me will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. In this, I have no doubt.

You can have that confidence too!